Embrace love and life.

mood: cranky

music: Segments from Electrico's concert are still in my head!

I need to rant about this person, but because I know that is very, very unprofessional and positively wrong and I'mjust exposing myself to severe implications, I will, and must practice a considerable amount of self-control. 

One more week of relief teaching- I will survive! Not that I dread going to school, dread is too extreme a word. I feel ambivalant about the teaching profession. These short 9 weeks was really an eye-opening experience for me. I never knew I hated admin work so much. Teaching, in all honesty, is exhausting yet rewarding at the same time. The girls have been showing signs that they want me to visit them regulary, even those classes that I just take for PE, a very minor subject (which have major implications on motor skills and erm, your health). Good gracious, I'll miss them like crazy too, and I was just getting used to all these teasing, kinda funny blurness, and who can forget the mad fan club, hurrhurr. It's embarassing, but it's a good kind of embaressment I'd suppose. :)

D-day is finally here. I was feeling emotionless (is that an oxymoron?) and rather distracted by the hundred and one things I have to do today, especially the part where I had to deal with a sobbing girl, whom I suspect is giving herself too much pressure over the Maths CA. Don't even get me started about my opinions of the ubiquitous lost childhood SIngapore children have. Today my mother was telling me how torn she was feeling when she saw her mother/my grandmother shouting at my 5 year old austistic cousin, just because he dunked the entire egg tart into a hot cup of milo. Part of her wanted to advise my grandma to restrain herself, because a kid is just going about doing the unthinkable stuff kids always do, and yet, because it is my grandma, it would be rude to do so. I just feel that kids should be given the time and space to enjoy their childhood, because once they pass that phrase, it's hard to lead such carefree, and responsible-less lifes again. But of course, discipline is necessary, to nuture the child that he does not have a silver spoon in his mouth all his life, or else, how is he going to ever stand up to face adversities? I think one of my greatest annoyances are spoilt brats who throw tantrums without any rhyme or reason, and with their parents mollycoddling and being all defensive about their behaviour. >:(

Anyway. Yes, the release of the A level results were today, and I'm just thankful for whatever God has blessed me with. I'm truly satisfied/elated with my 'A' level subjects grades- I got my first A ever in my JC life for both Economics and Literature, with a B for Geog, oh boy, plate tectonics had probably killed many of us on that. I really owe these to my dedicated tutors (at least I don't have to be ashamed for not meeting their expectations they have for me), and a bunch of friends who knew when it was the time to mug our asses off and to play (all the squash and running sessions, the pranks we pulled on teachers and peers, and even the little gossip sessions after a brain-draining period of writing essays/qns etc) Unfortunately, the same can't really be said for my AO subjects- GP and Math, though. I have to take an English Placement Test if I want to enter Business in NUS, because I got a sucky C5 for GP, and yet, I'm in a huge conundrum because... is it true that if you don't have an 'O' level pass in Additional Mathematics, you can't enter Business School?? I've got to plough through all the pamphlets and consider my prospects.... with God's plan forging ahead of mine.

I'm very proud of ACJC, Class of 2006! We managed to better the Class of 2005's results, especially in terms of the number of students getting 3/4 As. Woohoo, a record number of 200+! I'm happy for my friends who produced stellar results, because looking back in retrospect, they worked so hard and they truly deserve every bit of the electric shock feeling of numbness/surreality/elation/euphoria/surprise they felt when they went on stage! To those who are feeling bummed out, let me repeat what my mummy told me in the car before she dropped me off work on results day. Results does not signify the end of everything. They may play a big part in determining your university and uni course choice, but there are greater things in life that we can look forward for. Pause and think, and give thanks. That's the most important. 

II Thessalonians 5:18, ' For everything, give thanks, for this is the will of God in Jesus Christ concerning you.'

I'm feeling really bittersweet now. The receiving of results marks the closure of one chapter in my life, the chapter which I can say that it's been one hell of a ride. It was my most fun, most dramatic, most 'educational' in both school and outside of school terms, most crazy, most independence gained/granted... yet it was one of the most stressful periods of time as well. The people, really made my stay in ACJC so memorable. I wanna cry thinking about this. :*( Being 17 seems long ago, what the heck, I have one more year as a teenager! Which is kinda bad because adulthood=more responsibilities. Damn, I feel majorly nostalgic about my 2 whole years in AC that I feel like crying.

Highlight of the day was the Ikea dinner with my classmates, but sadly not all of them came, which was perfectly understandable. And THE ROCKIN' GOOD ELECTRICO CONCERT! The best part was I got a pair of tickets free! Haha, I was close to buying the tickets but Si couldn't make it, so Sam came, sat beside Yue Hua whom we bumped into, and went mad. Exciting, except I got pretty exhausted towords the end, because of such an eventful day.

Another busy day ahead tomorrow with a 1-5pm meeting, got to gear up for the Worldview Youth Conference, datelines are really tight, but I'm excited for the Grand Finale. Do check out http://worldview360.org to find out more about this conference that I'm involved in! :)